Frustration

What can I say? I am extremely frustrated today. It is absolutely ridiculous the crap that I have to put up with almost on a daily basis. You name it I have to hear about it. Sometimes it gets so bad that I want to scream at the top of my lungs until everyone's eardrums burst to how loud I scream.

However this frustration isn't as previous times. I can actual go and vent to Jason. Somehow, he makes it all better. You wanna know his secret? He actually listens. Imagine that...a man that listens. LOL. But he is just a man and only listens part of the time but it is the parts that matter.

So, how is the wedding you ask. It is coming along. Seven more months. I might have answered my centerpiece issue. I forgot I could use the plants from our own yard. Duh!

So I heard a story on NPR that concerns me. It was stating that a lot of people are not eating seafood from the Gulf Coast especially if it comes from Louisiana.  They are worried about possible contamination from the oil spill. However, the government, EPA, and other environmental groups have tested the water, the plants, and the animals and they have all said that it is safe. I make this promise right now. I plan on having as much seafood as I possibly can eat while I am in New Orleans. Yummy!

Flowers Flowers Flowers

Having issues trying to find the flowers for the centerpieces. I found some that I really like but they are $6 a stem. Uh, no. So I am idea shopping. Why does in season flowers expensive? One word: Gas. Yep that is what the lady told me. Oh joys!

Lazy Days

Okay, so I am not feeling so spunky lately. I don't know I just feel a little lazy. The house is a mess. But the hallway is painted. LOL. Like that is a good excuse. I just really wanted to sit and do absolutely nothing tonight. I am a little tense about some "issues" at work. Not actual work issues more like.....people issues. So I am getting up early in the morning and cleaning the house. I am going to get a jump on the day.

The wedding planning is going good. I really can't believe that in less then 33 weeks, I will be married. Yes, I said 33 weeks. Even though that is a long time but it is short to me. I count myself so blessed that Buggy and I are together with Jason. We are a family. We have a routine. We have connections. We have so much love for each other. This is what I have always wanted for Bugs. She has seen so much in her little life. She deserved so much more than what she was first given. I love that little girl. Jason does too. It is so cute that she has to say goodbye to him in the morning. She says bye and tells him that she loves him. It is so adorable.

Well, spring is almost here. I can literally smell it in the air. We are starting to plan some gardening for the house. Butterfly bushes for Buggy. Hopefully some irises for me. I don't know what kind of plants Jason wants but I am going to incorporate that in. We are both excited. Jason wants to work on the grass in the backyard and fill in the holes that the dogs dug.

I finally went to the doctor today. I got my ulcer medicine refilled. I am also back on my sleeping medication, however, I am on it when I decide to. The new doctor is awesome and actually listens. Might be the fact that she is a chick.

Okay, so I am off of here. I will probably get on here tomorrow.

Getting There

So tonight, Jason & I looked at what our honeymoon packages. We figured out what we wanted and getting a really good deal. Now we just have to pay for it. We are getting round trip and a really nice hotel. Plus we included tickets to some New Orleans attractions like the zoo, aquarium, a ghost tour....yeah that's right a ghost city tour. Heck ya!

I also bought the cake topper tonight. I was really excited about that. Everything is starting to come together. About time!

Starting Over

I am not sure when it happened but it did. And trust me I am not upset about it. When I met Jason, I felt like I could be myself and not hid my true personality. People always talk about hearing bells or music when they meet the right person (okay maybe that is the movies saying that) but I felt home. I wasn't the only one. Buggy did too. She climbed right up in his lap and asked him to read with her. I wasn't worried about him meeting my family. I wasn't worried about hanging out with him in public. I felt like I had been with him forever.

Even now, I don't have the same sense with anyone else. With Ray, I was afraid that he would say or do something stupid. And trust me, he didn't disappoint. With Chris, he wouldn't say anything I would regret but he wasn't family material. With Robbie.......do I really need to go there?

But with Jason, I don't have to worry. And the best bonus of all, he loves me as much as I love him.

Okay, more sappiness at another date.

In With The New....

So I am trying something new, I am going to get up early and excerise. Okay that isn't new, but what is is that I am taking sometime early in the morning for myself. No little one, no pets, no anything. Just me. Seems the best time to get some me time. So I am going to be blogging my thoughts during this time. I find that it helps me set my mind straight. So you all get to read more and see that I am truly nutso and I can release all this fine energy.

So I hope you enjoy and learn something about me. I will enjoy writing the crazy thoughts in my head.

So this was the first of many....see you all tomorrow.

Stressed

So I am a little stressed. There is alot of things going on right now. With everything happening at once, it has been increasingly hard to get everything done. On top of making sure we see enough of Jo before she goes to basic, we have birthdays, moving, fixing the house, work, bills, and of course the wedding. It seems like nothing is getting done but I know that isn't true.

My depression, worry, and insomnia is increasing because of all of this. I have been trying to concentrate on one thing at a time but to no avail. I find my patience running more and more thin. This is not good. I have to go back to my old techniques of mediation to "be one with the universe". I hate stress.