No means No!

I will be the first to admit I am not that observant. I can be quite naive. But there comes a time, when I have to stand up for myself. So I will do this right now.

Ray...Stay away from me. I don't want to talk to you. I don't want anything to do with you. I know you are reading this because you can't stay away. So I am stating this for everyone to see. I don't want to have any communication from you again. LEAVE ME ALONE! It's over. It's done. Move on.

Epiphany

I know what I want. I know what I need. I know who I am. The problem is how to make it all a reality.

It comes to an end...

It's over. Officially and honestly. He has found someone new. I was hoping I would be the one that does it but he did it first. I am not surprised. Is it time for me to move on? We haven't been a couple for months but it none the less it hurt like hell. I will get over it. I will survive.

Home Sweet Home

So I moved into my new place. There is one less member of my family....the ex boyfriend. We aren't together and we can not live with each other because he is selfish and I am stubborn about rules. You know rules about partying, rules about not smoking near the baby, rules about your do has to go. BTW, those are my rules. I can deal with it anymore. So I am unpacking. I am doing the best I can as a single mom. It can be difficult but I am making it work. Okay off to the salt mines

Buggy

There comes a point in your life when you are a mother and you realize that your little one is fastly become her own person. That she will for not much longer be the baby you cherish. I am realizing that now. She is eating table food now and is getting a personality. She will tell you when she doesn't like someone or whatever it is you are doing. She will let you know when she is tired and when she is happy. Even though she doesn't have completely formed words, you still understand what she is trying to get across. My time as a soppy overbearing mother is about over.

Soon I will have to change to marathon runner and sheep herder. She will be up and about getting into this and that. She will be telling me that she doesn't want to take a nap. She will be telling me that she will not eat those green beans. She will be telling me that she doesn't want a bath. Then she will learn the biggest lesson of all. She will try to tell me to be quiet. That will fail miserably. She will then learn consequence...grounded. Then she will no longer be my sweet angel but the reason why I need a nap myself. I am going to literally relish every minute.

Beware of the Mark of the Idiot

The darling boyfriend wa a complete ass to me yesterday. He decided that screaming and degrading me on the phone was going to help our relationship. Uh, right, sure....Not! Then when I got home, he tried to be all peaches and cream. Uh, not going to work. Not at this juncture. When I was quiet and just talked to the baby, he asked me what was wrong. I said that I was just waiting for an apology because no one should be forced to listen to that tirade. He later apologized but it was only half sincere. He wanted me to apologize for something that I said two weeks ago. The problem was I was right and he was clearly in the wrong. He had two friends with him when he said it and they both told him he was wrong. I did not apologize. Anyway, so that is the latest on that. The only thing I can tell myself is 3 more months and I am done.

So with this in my head, I hear of the latest from North Korea. First, let me say that I have no liking of this country. Those in power continue to let their people suffer starvation, poor living conditions, and abuse their rights as human beings on a constant and seedy basis. However, the American missionary who knew he was going into the country illegally to prove a point is a complete idiot. He would have a better chance of surviving a rabid lion attack with sausages tied around his neck. He says he is doing it to prove they have violated human rights. Duh, we know they have. Now you make more work for our politicians in order to save your ass. Why can't people think about these things before acting out?

Enough is Enough

I thought that things were going to work out. Boy was I a fool. So I sit in my little house with egg on my face while the darling boyfriend continues to disrespect me. Why? Because he can and he is an idiot. He doesn't know what he has and continues to make me the bad guy. I have had enough. I am done. He can take his "everyone owes me attitude" and cram it.

Then, I read the news. Apparently there was a terrorist plot on one of the airlines. Are you kidding me? The TSA is tightening the rules. How did they let this happen again? Did they honestly think that no one would try to attack us during one of the USA's treasured holidays. WAKE UP! Enough is enough. You need to continually have tough screenings because you never know when the next attack is. For heaven's sake, we are sending in more troops to Afghanstan. You don't think someone will be pissed. HELLO!